Rape Fantasies:

Simone’s Notes:

A ravishment or rape fantasy is a sexual fantasy about participating in a rape, a fictional story about a rape, or an acted-out scene of pretend rape between consenting adults. Rape fantasies occur in both the male and female sexual fantasy realms and their contents range from unwilling seduction to violent, forceful sex. One can imagine one is the rapist, or that one is being raped. The most commonly held theory about this phenomenon is that many individuals turn to fantasies about being raped as a means of reconciling naturally-occurring sexual desires with the intense negative stigma their culture and/or creed affix to sexual activity. The fantasy serves as a psychological device through which the fantasizer can safely indulge in intense sexual experiences without guilt, by absolving themselves of responsibility for participating in the act. Many socially acceptable examples can be found in "bodice ripper" fiction.

Edward trembled sickly as he looked at Derdra in St. Mary’s Touch Hospital the next morning. A visit to see his sexy little friend wasn’t the cure he was hoping for today. (The boy was bored and was longing for an escape. Derdra was busy had to work late tonight. She made Edward wait in the waiting room for her until she was finished.) He had been having violent fantasies about her. They were rape fantasies to be exact. Ed kept thinking about raping Derdra over and over again. The fantasy wasn’t the true problem. He was afraid on acting on them. “No!” the alchemist kept thinking to himself. “She’s not some sex toy for you to force upon whenever you want! Quit seeing her like that!” Edward took another look at Derdra. She sure was beautiful. The junior nurse wasn’t perfect, but she was real. Derdra had her faults. She spoke her mind at the wrong moment at times, a little too ambitious at times, naïve (but not stupid), and tries too hard to prove herself at times. But yet, Derdra had some strengths to her as well. The girl was bright, looks, stubborn as he was, bold, tries to live a little at times, and a half-angel at heart. Edward just couldn’t help but to be attracted to her.

But then, it started again. Edward thought luring Derdra away to somewhere private, forcing her to the ground, ripping off her clothes, and forcing her against her sweet will. No! No! No! This shouldn’t be acted upon. He had too much respect for Derdra like that! Aw, what’s wrong? That voice made Edward want to hurl everywhere. That beast was part of the reason he was suffering so much. I’m not tormenting you! I’m only opening your eyes to what you really are! Ed tried not to laugh at that reasoning. Oh, how funny! It always told lies like that one. Did it know where to quit? Did it actually think the host actually believed him? Sadly, Edward did believe it. Only out of desperation however. He just wanted to sleep. The boy hadn’t done that since spring. The only sleep he got was ones with wet dreams hanging onto them. The sleeping pills were long past working and the other drugs weren’t working. Ed was needy of any relief.

Edward began to feel his head ache again. He knelt over in pain. “It’s starting again!” he thought in misery. “I need to get out of here!” The alchemist slowly rose to his feet and headed outside into the late evening. The night was so heavy. Stars were painted all over the sky. Ed sank to his knees panting. This was a continuous thing. At first, the pain was just little and minor. But over these five months, it had gotten worse. Ed thought that he would die tonight. [What are you doing this to me for?!? I haven’t insulted you at all. I’ve been nice to you lately! So why are you doing this to me?] I’m not the one doing this to you! [Then, why am I feeling this pain?!?] Hm! Maybe you are doing this to yourself! Edward’s eyes widened in shock. Him…causing his own pain? Impossible! Why would he do such a thing? Except for lately, he had too much pride for himself to do something like this! He had no reason to hurt himself in any way! But then again…

“Edward?” a voice asked him behind. The alchemist quickly looked to see Derdra standing still. Her angelic beauty pulled him from the depths of pain and misery. “Are you okay Edward?” the junior nurse asked him in a worried voice. Ed slowly stepped close to her. He reached out his left hand and lightly brushed her soft cheek. “Y-Yes.” he forced himself to say at last. “I’m okay now!” Derdra gave him a small smile. “You looked sick tonight and I was wondering why you bolted out the door like that.” she said. “I’m fine now!” Edward assured. His screw buddy’s smile was like the sun coming out after a long storm to him. He couldn’t help but smile at her. Just like Winry, Nurse Chopin was the light in his life.

But then, it started up again. Edward froze in nervous fear. His mind went back to that place he hoped it would never go again. He fought to keep it out of there, but it was just inevitable.

[Rape fantasy begins]

Edward saw himself chasing Derdra down the street like a wild animal. She was trying to escape, but he was as fast as her. The boy’s libido was in control of his head tonight. The boy was a wild beast tonight. He was hungry for meat. Fresh sweet meat to be exact! Her fear completely turned him on. He just had to have her. Edward chased Derdra all the way into an abandoned alley. He grabbed onto his prey and forced her to the ground violently. The girl’s cries did nothing to stop him. It only fell on deaf ears. The alchemist forced her onto her back. The junior nurse tried to kick and punch him off. But, he forced her to stay still. The boy was stronger than her after all. He felt himself getting sick for doing this. “I am so sorry!” the boy thought. “Please forgive me!” But, he had to focus or he would go mad with sick desire in his soul. The alchemist transmuted his right hand into his famous blade and ripped at his f**k buddy’s clothes. Derdra tried to scream out but her naughty little friend covered her mouth so he could carry on with his devil’s work. The rush was very high in his eyes and blood. Yes! The boy wanted to this! He had been dying for it for weeks. He then undid his pants and forcefully entered into her. The boy quickly covered his screw friend’s mouth to stop her from screaming for help. Savage thrusts followed behind. Ed felt the he did when he was shagging the girl Ai-Oni brought with her that night. Derdra burst into tears. The alchemist felt himself crying as well. “I am so sorry, Dee!” he thought. “You belong to me Derdra!” Edward hissed at last. “You are mine!!!” Then, he went on another round of force with the junior nurse. He just couldn’t get enough of her. Dee began sobbing again.

[End of rape fantasy]

“Edward?” a voice asked him. The alchemist quickly returned to Earth. Derdra looked at him with big question in her eyes. “Are you feeling okay?” she asked. Ed just kept staring at her nervously. He slowly lowered his hand from her cheek. The boy was now scared of acting on his fantasies. Ed didn’t want to hurt Derdra again. But, her face was tempting him to do so. He had to get away from her before things became ugly. “I’m so sorry!!!” he yelled out. Then, the alchemist ran away as fast as he could. The problem was solved for now. But, running away and avoidance weren’t going to be just as easy soon. The prologue of Ai-Oni’s sexy show had just begun.