Obedience:

Simone’s Notes:

In the terms of BDSM scenes or interactions, a bottom refers to the person who takes on the submissive role for the duration of a scene. This term is associated with being on the receiving end of bondage, discipline, and sadism. They may be involved in such acts as bondage, flogging, humiliation, or servitude from the top. The term originates from a more general use of the word, especially among the gay male community, to mean receptive partner. A bottom is not necessarily submissive, and vice versa. At one end of the continuum is a submissive who enjoys taking orders from a dominant but does not receive any physical stimulation. At the other is a bottom who enjoys the intense physical and psychological stimulation but does not submit to the person delivering them.

*Alex*

It just keeps getting worse. Tonight, I was lying awake in my bed. I still can’t sleep because of Edward. He has scarred me badly. I still can’t shake his touch from me. It all keeps haunting me. The way he stroked my hair, his touch on my skin, his kiss on my lips, his tongue lightly caressing mine, his hands on my good man… My skin crawls every time I think about it. I hated it, but now… I just don’t know what to think anymore. So many questions keep running through my head. What does he want with me? Why did he do that to me? Within seconds my hell would begin again, only much worse this time.

Suddenly, a knock came on my window. I looked down slowly. “Please don’t let it be him!” I thought in heavy misery. I was too afraid to look. But yet, I had to know if he was going to have his way with me again or not. So, I took a little peek downwards. Edward was looking in from out the window. My heart raced in deep fear. “It’s him!” I thought in worry. He was motioning me to let him in. Suddenly, I felt slightly sick. I don’t want to let Edward in, but yet I was afraid of what would happen if I didn’t. He waited for me patiently. I was really scared now. His eyes kept telling me, “It’s okay; I won’t bite you or anything. Just let me in.” I was too scared to move at all. At last against my better judgment, I sat up and opened the window. Edward swooped in with an inhuman grace and pinned me down against my bed. The pressure from his hands was so heavy that I was beginning to choke. Was he going to kill me now?

Edward shook his head at me seductively. “No, no,” he said to me in a whisper. “I have no intent on killing you? Where would the fun be in that?” I just stared at him with big deer eyes. I couldn’t speak at all.

“What do you want with me?” I tried to mouth out. Edward quickly covered my mouth with his left hand. His eyes were what scared me the most tonight. They looked to be out for some blood.

“What I want, my little pet,” he replied in a low voice. “Is you! I want to be your first tonight.” I was really afraid now. What did he mean by that? Why does he want me so much? I tried to ask again, but he leaned down and kissed me on the lips. The pressure lessened on my chest. I gasped in surprise. Edward lightly put his hand to my chest again.

“Relax, my little pet,” he said to me in my head. I couldn’t. Instead, I got even tenser. I could feel another panic attack coming on. My throat began to close up and I was having trouble breathing now. Then, something strange happened. I began to feel my body burning up all over. The heat was really making me stiff now. I thought that I would faint. What was he doing to me? Where did all of this heat come from?

“You have a delicious aura!” he said to me in my head. I really panicked now. I wanted to push him off, but couldn’t. He was like dead weight on my body. He slipped his tongue into my mouth to add onto the heat. I wanted to scream but couldn’t. My voice was too choked up in my throat. Then, Edward slowly slipped his hands down to the hem of my shirt and slowly slid it off. I began to feel cold and sweating at the same time. Once my shirt was off, he tossed it straight to the floor. I wanted to fight back, but I couldn’t. My body was still stiff with heat and cold. I knew that still I couldn’t react, he would keep going. And he did.

Edward went straight for my pants next. He slowly slid those off as well. I really couldn’t breathe now. I could feel his tongue almost choking me again. “Not good! Not good!” I kept thinking over and over again in my head. “Please let me go! I don’t know why you are so interested in me for! Why me?”

“Pets should not ask questions!” he said to me in my head. “You just lie there and submit to me!” I had no choice but to do as he said. What could I do? He was much stronger than me and could kill me if so desired. So I just had to follow his every word and let him do with me as he pleased. I was just his pet as he said.

“Just trust me!” Edward said to me in my head. “Trust me!” He finished with my pants and began on my boxers. I began to sweat even more at his touch. I really couldn’t move now. Edward just kept kissing me the whole time. I feared him, but yet I had developed some feelings for him.

Then he began moving on top of me. Not to get off, but in the bad way. I really went stiff now. He placed heavy pressure on my shoulders to add more force. I was trying my hardest breathe and not panic. He seemed to be… doing it with me. Why was he doing this to me? Edward was actually raping me. But was he really? I am actually… enjoying this? It is kind of nice… Wait! Are these my own thoughts? Or is he putting them in my head for his own amusement.

Edward didn’t stop at all. He just kept going faster on top of me. I was suddenly feeling very dizzy and lighted-headed. It felt as if my soul was leaving my body slowly. But then, Edward moved his left hand on my forehead and firmly placed it on my forehead. A cool mist seeped into my skin slowly. He was… healing me! I was beyond confused now. He raping me and sucking the life out me, but yet… he’s healing me? This monster was giving me mixed signals. He broke off the kiss to stare deep into my eyes.

“I want you awake through your first time!” Edward told me in my head. “I have you lose conscious now would spoil my fun. Understand?” I could reply to him at all. All I could do was stare up at him with big eyes. He smiled down at me as if I was his personal property for playing with. He took his left hand away from my forehead and lightly stroked my hair.

“Good!” he said to me in a disturbing tone in my head. Then he leaned down and began kissing me again. This whole cycle of thrusting, kissing, draining, and healing went on for what felt like hours. He came hard on top of me. He moaned loudly in my mouth. Edward climbed off of me slowly. I finally could move again. I lied there panting and trembling in fear. My body just ached all over as a result. Shame was heavy all over me. I just felt very sick all over. I wanted to throw up on him. I wanted to spit on him. Words weren’t what I was feeling. I still couldn’t believe what happened. The monster just cleaned himself up and turned to me.

“Sweet dreams!” he called in a sadistic voice. Edward leaned down stroked my hair again and kissed me lightly on the forehead like I was a small defenseless child. I strangely felt better and began to relax at his touch. My captor smiled at me again.

“There you see!” he cooed at me again. “You’re starting to feel better again already.” The monster then leaned down and lightly kissed me on the lips.

“I’ll see you again really soon, my pet!” he told me in a twisted and gentle voice. Then he disappeared out my window again. He shutting it behind him only made me shutter even more. I tried to shut my eyes and forget the whole thing. But it just wouldn’t leave my head. It would leave a bad scar on my innocence. It wouldn’t be the last time however. I would experience much more and more even violent than what Edward even gave me.