Mars + Venus II:

Simone’s Notes:

Schneider identified three indicators of sexual addiction: compulsivity, continuation despite consequences, and obsession.

Compulsivity: This is the loss of the ability to choose freely whether to stop or continue a behavior.

Continuation despite consequences: When addicts take their addiction too far, it can cause negative effects in their lives. They may start withdrawing from family life to pursue sexual activity. This withdrawal may cause them to neglect their children or cause their partners to leave them. Addicts risk money, marriage, family and career in order to satisfy their sexual desires. Despite all of these consequences, they continue indulging in excessive sexual activity.

Obsession: This is when people cannot help themselves from thinking a particular thought. Sex addicts spend whole days consumed by sexual thoughts. They develop elaborate fantasies, find new ways of obtaining sex and mentally revisit past experiences. Because their minds are so preoccupied by these thoughts, other areas of their lives that they could be thinking about are neglected.

On the last day of redemption, Edward and Derdra were in a private bathhouse on the Red Light District. The nurse sat on the edge drinking some cold sake. Edward sat at a distance admiring her. He knew that it would be time to leave soon. The monster knew that he was starting to get too soft for his new reputation. But tonight, he had to stay with Derdra for one last blessing to calm down his guilt.

“Edward,” he heard someone call to him. The alchemist looked up and saw his goddess looking right at him. She looked so lovely wrapped in her white cotton towel. Her breasts looked fully formed in the cloth. Her hair was down tonight. Derdra’s soft tan-colored skin was really tasty as well. She had a curious look on her face. Her brown eyes reflected the same.

“What’s on your mind tonight?” she questioned. Edward lightly shrugged at her.

“Nothing much,” he said.

“Ah,” Derdra said with a nod. Then, it went quiet for a few seconds. Edward softly swallowed. Now was a good time to say this. If he didn’t, it would defeat the whole purpose of redemption. But how to say it without scaring her again? Well, it was worth a shot.

“Listen Derdra,” the monster said to her. “I have to go away by morning.” The nurse looked at him without any expression on her face. This wasn’t new to hear at all. She had become used to Edward coming and going like this. Derdra was surprised that he stayed as long as he did this time. Strange thing was she just couldn’t figure out why he always came to her like he did.

“Okay,” she said calmly. Edward waited for a few seconds. When his goddess said nothing, the alchemist pushed himself to talk even more.

“I am about to doing something you’ll hate me for when I go away,” he pressed on. “This time it is really bad!” Derdra still kept the same face.

“I am aware of that,” she said. “You have told me you’re going to kill that girl.” Edward nodded at her bitterly with tears forming in his eyes.

“Yes,” he choked out. He sniffled a little bit. Derdra felt great pity for him. These weren’t fake tears to try and seduce her with. These were real tears that Edward was crying out. He was in real pain. He couldn’t fake anything with her at all. She stood up from where she was sitting on the other side and made her way over to him. The nurse gently cradled him in her strong and soft arms to her chest.

“Shhh,” she whispered to him. “It’s okay,” Then she turned his face to hers. Edward’s golden tear-filled eyes met hers. Derdra had a little sympathy in her face.

“It’s okay,” she whispered to him. “It’s okay.” Then, the nurse lightly kissed him on the lips. Edward felt relived all over again. A sea of forgiveness wished over him right away. He instantly kissed her back. Their kisses added on from there. Edward pushed his goddess back into the water. He quickly opened her towel. Derdra instantly spread her legs for him. Edward smiled to himself kindly at her gesture. She was just so forgiving towards him. He couldn’t understand why. He couldn’t even forgive himself at times. Derdra was just a pure saint to him. Well, there was only one way to repay her.

“I have to admit to you,” Edward whispered. “You are so good to me.” Derdra nodded to him softly.

“I know,” she said to him. The alchemist kissed her again on the lips. He removed his own towel slowly. The incubus made a shield to protect her from himself and slid himself into her. The nurse began to moan out loud. Edward quickly silenced her with his own lips on a kiss. He slowly slipped his tongue into her mouth. Derdra gave him her tongue as well. The alchemist started up right away. He started off slow and gentle as usual. The monster wanted to make this last moment one of the best before he left her again. The nurse moaned happily in his mouth. She seemed to want him to go harder and faster on her. Edward smiled to himself in his head. “Well okay, then,” he thought. “Whatever the woman wants, the woman gets!” So, the alchemist sped up within his lover. Derdra moaned aloud in his mouth again. She held onto Edward tightly to her lovely body. Their kisses became faster and faster. There was no malice in Edward tonight. He was careful to keep that at bay. He had to keep his nurse pure. If he corrupted her in any way, he would be lost in Hell forever. Ed could not afford that for himself just yet.

The scent of Derdra teased him so much. Edward wanted to eat her up right away. He broke off the kiss and leaned in close to her burning hot ear.

“You feel so good!” he whispered to her. Derdra moaned happily at first.

“Harder Edward!” she whispered to him. “Don’t tease me like this! I’m begging you!” The alchemist smiled at her gently. His kisses were just a few inches from her ear.

“Anything you want, my love,” he whispered. “Anything you want.” Then, the incubus sped up even more. This was a plus to him being one of the Fallen now. He had achieved longer stamina and higher speeds to pleasure his beloved nurse. The power drove Derdra wild. That was the only thing she would miss when and if Edward finally came back to the light. Everything else about his corruption could go. Oh well, can’t focus on that now. Tonight was the last night together for a while. Might as well make the most of this time before it is over. Edward went faster and faster at her scent and touch. He was now pumping along with their heartbeats. This was the only lovemaking that was pure and innocent. The monster could never bring himself to malice in moments like this Derdra. He often wondered when it would turn otherwise. But yet, that was not to be worried with at that time. Just enjoy the sweet pleasure between them.

After a long while, Edward came within his shield in Derdra.

“Ohhh!!!” he yelled out. “DERDRA, MY LOVE!!!” The nurse moaned aloud in high happiness. Edward didn’t let go of her until he was done coming inside of her. When he was finished, the incubus collapsed panting in happiness. He turned to his lover with a satisfied smile on his face. Derdra was smiling at him likewise. Edward reached his good hand towards her forehead and lightly pushed some wet loose strands of hair away from her face. The monster pulled out of her and rolled off of her softly in the water. Edward did manage to stay close to his goddess however. The alchemist didn’t seem to let her go just yet. He lightly kissed her on the lips. He leaned down to her ear again.

“Am I forgiven now?” the repentant sinner asked her. Derdra smiled at him kindly.

“Yes,” she whispered to him as she was slowly falling asleep next to him. “You are forgiven.” Edward smiled at her in relief.

“Thanks, my goddess!” he whispered to her loudly.

“Hmm…” the nurse said softly. And then, she fell right asleep right next to him. Edward smiled at her kindly. He gently kissed her on the lips one last time. Then, he wrapped her back up in her towel, dressed himself, gathered their clothes and things, and headed out of the bathhouse. He carried her all the way back to her apartment without being seen. The monster then let himself inside and quietly walked in. He dressed Derdra for bed and put her in for the night. Edward gently pulled the sheets over her curvy charming body. He kissed her on the lips one last time.

“Sleep well, my love,” the monster whispered to her. “You won’t see me again for a long while.” Then, Edward walked away deep into the pitch black night and back into his sinful and gory ways.