Love & Lust:

Simone’s Notes:

Lust and love are always mixed up together. People think they are the same thing. But sadly, they are not. Love is pure and strong. Lust by definition is any intense desire or craving for self gratification. In the Christian religion, lust is one of the deadly sins. A sin, according to this tradition, is a "habit inclining one to sin". The specific sins to which lust may lead are fornication, adultery, incest, criminal assault, abduction, sodomy, rape, and others. However, "Such guilt as one may have contracted in any case is charged directly to the sinful act, not to the vice;" in other words, it is the specific sins, and not the vice itself, which deprive one's soul of sanctifying grace and make one deserving of God's punishment.

Damon had gotten close to Ginny too fast. It had only been days since they had talked to each other. He was in lust with her already. The lt. col. was really in a battle this time. Ginny wasn’t exactly cute at all. But she had something charming about her. The man didn’t want to do anything that would jeopardize his marriage. Sadly, every second with Ginny was proving to be harder and harder to do. She was very fragile at the moment. The girl had lost her best friend in December and couldn’t tell anybody about it. So she was in a vulnerable state. Damon was there as a shoulder to cry on. The lt. col. listened to her talk when she was upset. He turned out to be a great friend to her. That was all he was to her-- so far. It would turn into even more soon.

One warm night, the bet would be raised higher to dangerous peaks. Ginny had introduced Damon to her friends. Jakob, Mikey, and Hunter accepted the older man uneasily. “Everyone,” the Catholic girl said with a chirp to her boys at the local juice bar. “This is my friend, Damon Sanders! He’s a lt. col. in the army!” “Hi guys!” Damon said to them. “Hi…” the boys said uneasily as they waved to him. The rest of the night was awkward from there. Nobody knew what to say. Jakob, Mikey, and Hunter kept whispering to themselves the whole night. “Who is he really?” Hunter asked his guy friends. They looked at him confused. “What do you mean?” Mikey whispered. The Irish boy was really suspicious about. Ginny had been reeling with sorrow since Kate’s death. Her thinking hadn’t been too clear ever since. Hunter and the boys were rightful worried. They feared that the worst could happen any moment for her.

“Well think about it,” the Irish boy whispered to them. “Ginny’s not been herself lately.” “True,” Jakob agreed. They had noticed that their den mother hadn’t been lecturing them like she normally. She didn’t seem to care what the boys did. It was do as you please, I don’t care. One day of that was fine, but months called for concern. “But what is your point?” the mouse asked. Hunter tried not to scream out. “This man could be trying to take advantage of her.” he finished. “So, we need to keep an eye on her and him.” The boys sat there in silence. “But do we really need to?” Mikey asked. “He seems so nice!” Hunter sighed out annoyed. “Ginny’s not herself!” he called. “I just want to keep her safe. Okay?” The other two boys just shrugged. They just nodded uneasily. Hunter began to relax. “Thanks guys!” he whispered loudly to them. Then, he, Jakob, and Mikey continued to watch Ginny and Damon closely.

Ginny couldn’t help but to notice that her friends kept watching her like a hawk. She seemed to look worried. “What’s wrong Ginny?” Damon asked. The girl turned back to him trying to look happy. “I think my friends are worried that I might do something stupid.” she answered. The lt. col. looked at her puzzled. “What do you mean?” he asked. The girl just shrugged. “It’s nothing,” she said calmly. Damon just smiled at her kindly. “Okay, then.” the lt. col. said. Ginny just smiled back at him. Sanders raised up his hand in the air. “Bar tender!” he yelled out. “Their drinks are on me!” Ginny smiled out gratitude. The boy tried not to gag.

The hours went by quick. Ginny was cuddled up close to Damon as if he was her boyfriend. The old urge started up again. The man became pretty nervous. His heart skipped a wild beat. “Oh no!” he thought in a panic. “I have to resist them!” The temptation was rapidly growing harder to resist. “Damon,” she said softly to him. The lt. col. looked down at her quickly. Ginny was smiling at him sweetly. “Yes?” he asked. “You don’t look too well,” his female friend spoke up. “Want to sit on the couch with me?” Sanders was hesitant to answer at first. He knew where that would lead. Gin smiled at him gingerly. “Don’t worry,” she said honey-sweetly. “You don’t have to if you don’t want to!” That made up Damon’s mind for him. “Okay!” he called easily. Then, they hurried to the couch on the back wall. The boys kept watching the whole time.

Damon was stuck in a perverted limbo. Part of him wanted to make out with Ginny so badly, but then another part of him wanted to stay good. The girl cuddling close to him wasn’t helping either. Damon tried not to look too closely at her. But that was an alcoholic refusing beer. He ended up taking a little peek. What a peek it was! Ginny looked like a normal senior girl. Long blonde hair, soft honey brown eyes, small soft shoulders, healthy plump breasts under a light orange sweater, lovely curves in her long black jeans… Oh, Damon wanted to do so to that hot young body! He shook his head hard. “No!” the lt. col. thought. “Bad thoughts out!” This battle went on for hours in his head. Temptation is a nasty bitch! From the bar, the boys were still watching them. “He looks like he’s going to be sick!” Mikey whispered to the other two. “That’s the look of a wolf!” Hunter called. “A wolf?” Jakob asked. “A total leech!” the Irish boy called. “Oh!” Mikey and Jakob said aloud in unison. “Exactly!” the Irish boy called. “That is why we need to keep a close eye on him and stop him if he tries anything!” “Right!” the other boys called. Then, they kept watching.

Around closing time, Damon went home with Ginny. He tried to refuse, but the girl insisted. They were both now in the living together in dark silence. Damon felt really nervous about this scenario. “Just relax and everything will be fine!” he thought. Then, something caught his attention. Ginny was smiling at him sweetly. “What is it?” he asked. The girl turned to him with a dreamy look in her eyes. “You know,” she began tenderly. “I have never been kissed before.” Damon looked at her surprised. “You’ve been kissed?” he asked. Ginny lightly shook her head. The lt. col. felt slightly happy now. “A girl like you never been kissed?” Sanders asked. “That’s just a crime!” Gin smiled at him sweetly. “And I was wondering,” she said. “Could you… Oh my, this embarrassing! Could you…” Damon already knew who her question. This time, he couldn’t help himself. Damon lightly leaned forward and kissed Ginny on the lips. A warm feeling rose within her. “This is… so good!” she thought in happiness. Damon felt himself getting aroused as well. “This… just too good to stop!” he thought. It was so tempting to go further, but they broke away slowly.

Both couldn’t say anything at first. Ginny was blushing. “That was…” she began. “Yeah!” Damon replied. Silence passed between them again. “Well,” the lt. col. said at last. “Good night!” “Right!” Ginny called semi-happily. Then, Sanders rose to his feet and headed out the door. Ginny sat on the couch alone in the dark. For once in four months, she actually felt… happy! Damon was a godsend to her. She just had to see him again. The girl just closed her eyes and lightly put her fingers to her lips. Then, she picked up her shirt and took in a deep breath to smell it. Damon was all over her now. Pretty soon, in more ways than one!