Deeper and Deeper:

Simone’s Notes:

Hodgkinson believes several factors create a climate for obsessive love. Leisure, because obsessive love almost always coincides with boredom, as stated by Anthropologist Branko Bokun. Feelings of vulnerability and a perceived failure to belong because those who feel they do not have a recognized place in the world, and/or those undergoing dramatic life changes and the associated fear and lack of self-confidence will seek out an outlet for their anxieties. Hodgkinson believes this is the most important factor. An inflated opinion of oneself, as this is believed to ultimately stem from insecurity, with this insecurity driving the obsessed to seek an individual with attributes that they want for themselves. Particular childhood experiences, such as deep feelings of unworthiness during childhood that lead the obsessed to seek out one who finds the obsessed similarly unworthy in adulthood. Feelings of being special and/or different, as there is an apparent correlation between feelings of distance from peers, whether real or perceived, and obsessive love. Inequality between the lover and the beloved, e.g., the beloved may be married/taken, older, too young, famous, far away, from different social class or attractiveness level or otherwise unattainable.

Moore postulates that the way a person "loves" is learned. He suggests that the blueprint of our love styles is passed on to a person through primary relationships during childhood. For example, if a child is not shown healthy love and affection during formative years, the person may go on to gain attention in the form of dysfunctional relationships later in life. He also suggests that children from alcoholic families may be at greater risk for love addiction or relationship addiction. Others have suggested that borderline personality types and dependent personality types are at greater risk for relationship addiction.

Alex had another violent attack done upon him once again. This occurred right in his bedroom like they normally did. Let’s back up some before we all go into detail, shall we? So far in August, Alex was enjoying a quiet summer. The fallen ones had left him alone since that cupcake party the succubi had earlier this month. Alex had grown nervous over the days of inactivity. He was even thinking that the fallen ones were plotting something. The lamb could just feel it. Knowing that he was being watched by both sides didn’t help either. Alex was still stuck. Tonight was only going to be much worse!

The lamb made it home from his therapy just in time. Allen had already gone to bed now. His step-son remained quiet as he entered into the house. Alex looked around the dark room quickly and nervously. He could never be too sure nowadays. Once he was sure that it was clear, the lamb walked over into the kitchen to get something to eat. Alex looked around the kitchen as well. That was clear too. The lamb slowly breathed in. He walked carefully over to the refrigerator and looked inside. The boy found some items for a sandwich and pulled them out. He made himself dinner and ate it at the table quiet. Alex kept looking cautiously. “They could strike at any moment now!” the boy kept thinking to himself. Alex was living in deep fear. It would take a long time for him to get over it. Half way through his sandwich, the lamb felt sick to his stomach and lost his appetite. He bagged up his sandwich and put it in the fridge. Alex quietly headed up the stairs to his room. The whole time he kept looking around in nervous fear. Even though the stairs were clear, Alex still didn’t trust them. The boy kept his eyes open the whole time. He finally made it to his bedroom. The lamb looked all around in the dark hall. No one was in sight. Alex had made sure that he stayed quiet the whole time so not to wake Allen up. The boy just didn’t want to worry his step-father at all. However, there was only one more place to check for monsters at. The lamb drew in a deep breath. He didn’t want to do this, but he just had to. Alex held his breath as he opened the door.

Azrael was sitting on the lamb’s bed waiting for him. He had a sinister smirk on his face.

“Well hello there, Little Alex!” the beast said to him. The lamb became very frightened. The poor soul went ghost pale. He was about to scream out when the incubus rushed forward and covered his mouth with his heavy hand. Alex looked at him in terror.

“Shhh!” Azrael said to him. “We don’t want to wake Allen up, do we?” The lamb shook his head in nervous fear. The incubus smiled at him wickedly.

“That’s what I thought!” he replied. Then, the incubus pushed Alex forward onto the bed. The poor soul landed with a thud. Azrael quickly mounted him from behind. He grabbed onto the lamb shoulders tightly. Alex cried out in pain into the pillow under him. The incubus hit him hard in the back with his elbow. The lamb cried out in pain again in his muzzle. Azrael leaned down to his victim.

“Shut up and take it!” he hissed to the boy. Then, he lightly licked Alex on the ear. The lamb shuttered in deep fear. “No! Not again!” he thought in misery. “Why does this keep happening to me?!?”

“Because!” Azrael hissed coldly at him. “You are just that fun to play with!” Then the incubus tore off the lamb’s clothes violently. His sharp nails “accidentally” scraped up against the poor lamb’s back. Alex tried his best not to scream out loud. But the pain was just too unbearable. A low groan of pain escaped into his throat. Azrael stripped down himself and pushed the lamb’s legs apart in a heated rush. Tears just fell from the lamb’s cheeks. He knew too well what was coming next. It was always the same thing. But yet, Alex was still scared to death of it. These monster had just ruined sex for him.

Azrael violently slid himself into the lamb. He moaned aloud in happy bliss. Alex just drew in a deep breath. The next part wasn’t going to be pretty. It never was. Azrael began thrusting into lamb in a heated rage. It started out the same rape and conquer moment. Something inside of Alex had snapped. He just couldn’t take this anymore. The lamb began to struggle to get free from his captor. The incubus noticed this right away. A sickening smile came on his face. “He’s trying to fight back!” he thought in excitement. “Finally some action!” Azrael began to try and hold down the pet. He had a good grip for a few minutes, but Alex tried to fight back again. He finally managed to push the beast off of him violently. Azrael fell off of the bed surprised and aroused. He wasn’t expecting this! It made him hungry for more. Alex sat up staring at him trembling violently all over.

“You won’t hurt me this time!” he yelled out. Azrael raised his eyebrow at his prey. His eyes were now filled with that familiar black and red spinning about.

“Oh?” he challenged boldly. Alex suddenly didn’t feel confident in his own words. He even wished he hadn’t said or did anything to put him in this situation. But he had no choice but to keep going now. He was just stuck now.

“No!” Alex repeated strongly. Azrael just rose to his feet. Alex became even more scared now.

“Aw,” Azrael replied in mocking sympathy. “That’s too bad! Because you really turned me on just now!” The lamb was really in a panic now! He should have seen this one coming. But that blind bravely prevented him from doing so. Now, he was really in for it tonight. The lamb had no choice but to lie still and take it or fight in vain now.

Needless to say, the end resolve was the worst that Alex had ever had so far. The lamb did fight back this time however, but it was no use. Azrael proved to be stronger than him and have the upper hand over him. The incubus shoved the pet onto his stomach on the floor violently and forced himself onto with deep rage and desire. All Alex could do now was cry in misery and pain. He wished that he hadn’t tried to stand up to this monster tonight. But it was too late now. Now, Alex had to suffer the consequences of his fake bravery. Azrael kept thrusting into the pet violently like an animal.

“Oh yes!” he yelled out in high bliss. Alex just lied there crying. He had really blew it this time. Now he was really paying for it tonight.

At long last, Azrael came within his pet. The beast moaned aloud in great pleasure.

“Ah yes!!!” he yelled out in the end. The poor lamb just lied there on the floor panting and trembling in great fear. The incubus just looked down at Alex smirking. The lamb was a pitiful sight to see. Azrael had successfully broken the favorite pet down again. He lightly rubbed his finger down the lamb’s sore and sweaty back. Alex trembled again in fear. The monster leaned down to his captive.

“Get dressed for bed, get into bed, and pretend like never ever happened in the morning.” Azrael ordered him. Alex nodded in great fear. He really didn’t want round two of punishment for being defiant. The incubus climbed off of the whipped pet, got dressed, and sank into the floor smirking in an icy cold silence. “Sleep well, Little Alex!” Azrael said to the lamb in his head mockingly. “If you can!” Alex shuttered in fear at those words. Then, he slowly rose to his feet and did as the incubus told him to do. This was the worst night that Alex had ever had so far. That was only the second taste of the harvest for him! And believe me, it was only going to get worse from there!